10 Aug Dispair
Lately I have been feeling an awful feeling of dispair from the moment I wake up. I have no idea why it is so and I wish I could feel a sense of calm. Instead all I feel is a mounting sense that doom is just around the corner and I am currently being pulled towards it. I have tried everything to distract me from this feeling and I feel I can’t escape. My prayers feel weaker and so do I. It is really hard to focus on anything that is meaningful and inner thoughts don’t help. So I am turning here, to any one else, to feel something else.